Just some rants
I woke up this morning feeling this is the last day of my life. Possibly because of lack of sleep. I recently get no sleep every other day because of my withdrawal reaction and irritable sticky eyes.
So I went to see my GP, which I don't do often, and said I've got several things I want to discuss - my sticky eye condition, depression and insomnia. He said that he cannot discuss all in 10 minutes. 10 minutes rule. I forgot about it. This is something I wasn't familiar with until I came to England. Yes, I totally understand that NHS is free and there're other people waiting, so you should keep it all your business up to 10 min. Efficient, I like efficiency. On the other hand, I couldn't help but crying with sadness.
It is mentally hard for me to even go outside and be in public because of how I look. I'm tired of going to see different doctors and get nothing but TS (I'm doing this repeatedly for 6 years for god's sake) - however this morning I still felt I needed some support from a medical professional. My GP is nice, but I still cannot get what I desperately needed. Health.
From my experience, when my withdrawal condition improves, it happens like a magic. One day you are not so itchy and your skin starts to heal more quickly than you would ever imagined. After 2 weeks or so, it's all clear. It wasn't relevant to seasons, weathers, what I eat or things I do. It felt like my skin suddenly remembered how to heal. I'm waiting for the moment.
My mind is everywhere today. Hope tomorrow will be a better day.